{"componentChunkName":"component---src-templates-blog-post-js","path":"/forgetting-how-to-laugh/","result":{"data":{"site":{"siteMetadata":{"title":"Rope and Tire","author":"Suprada Urval"}},"markdownRemark":{"id":"270cc37f-a70e-5601-a3c6-ced915815ec5","excerpt":"I have succumbed to this problem of adulthood and only now do I realize this. I wonder when I fell contracted this illness? I realized recently that I have this insidious form of amnesia – I have forgotten what it is to laugh heartily. I have…","html":"<p>I have succumbed to this problem of adulthood and only now do I realize this. I wonder when I fell contracted this illness?</p>\n<p>I realized recently that I have this insidious form of amnesia – I have forgotten what it is to laugh heartily. I have forgotten what it is to live lightly. I have forgotten humor. My mind is filled with all the seriousness of adult hood. It is filled with all the pains of adulthood. And all the not so happy memories – these I am unable to let go. And when I do finally let go of some of them, I seem to collect more pains in that emptied space. And the good memories just slide of. Where are they sliding away to? And why do I struggle oh so hard against these pains rather than just accepting them as a part of my adulthood?</p>\n<p>And so now I wonder how do I go about curing myself? The easy answer is to just laugh. But when the laugh isn’t from deep in your heart, it does not help.</p>\n<p>And so this year, I begin my search for the lightness of being, for the laughter and joy which all the books tell me is right here somewhere around me.</p>","frontmatter":{"title":"Forgetting how to laugh","date":"January 14, 2015","url":"/forgetting-how-to-laugh/","tags":["Thoughts"]}}},"pageContext":{"slug":"/forgetting-how-to-laugh/","previous":{"fields":{"slug":"/2015-01-12-hungry-about-life-200-words-project/"},"frontmatter":{"title":"Hungry about life – 200 words project","url":"/hungry-about-life-200-words-project/","tags":["200-words-project"]}},"next":{"fields":{"slug":"/december-2014-reading-log/2015-01-17-december-2014-reading-log/"},"frontmatter":{"title":"December 2014 Reading Log","url":"/december-2014-reading-log/","tags":["reading-log","the-best-book-I-read-last-month"]}}}},"staticQueryHashes":["3128451518","426816048"]}